I can't stop thinking about suicide-How do you convince yourself to keep on going?

I'm sorry to hear about all that has happened to you and i would really like to help, but i have no idea how. You have already used suicide hotlines, and probably a phsychologist, but i really think you need someone to talk to, someone that doesn't act like nothing ever happened, just to make themselves feel better because they know this is all thier fault. All you need is a really good friend and maybe someone that doesn't care so much about themselves and actually gives a damn about you. I have chronic depression and i get depressed all the time, and i usually want to kill myself when i do. If you listen to music, escpecially country music, it always makes me feel better. But you are what, only thirty? You have got a lot to live for, and, even though they may not act like it, there are a lot of people around you that really care and will miss you when you're gone, god willing, that be a long time from now. And I also think you need to get away from that husband- or whatever- of yours, it seems like he doesn't give a damn about you or your daughter, only himself and his reputation. I think that you are a really strong person. You have tried to kill yourself, what, seven times? And you are not dead. You are still alive, here, on earth, breathing, talking, eating, laughing -hopefully- and that means God has a purpose for you in your life. You may not see it now, but you are going to do something great one day and that is why God has put you through so much, so that you would be strong enough, quiet enough, caring enough, or whatever you need to be to help someone else. You should not kill yourself. Your daughter needs you. You said she has been beaten and wants to kill herself too, well then you have to be strong and lead a good example for her, and tell her everything will be ok, trust me, i've talked 3 of my friends out of suicide already, just by telling them they need to be strong and that I am always there. You need someone to always be there for you too, and i think you and your daughter could find that in eachother. You could be the one she lays her head on to cry, and vice versa. I know I'm only a kid, but I understand what you are going through, I've been through a very similar situation, and i am here and alive. If your friends won't listen, go find new friends, because i count on my friends more than my family. I hope i could help you and if you ever need to talk i am here. GOOD LUCK