I have started hating my dad?

my father is 59 (i am 19 am in first year of college) he is retiring next year and we still dint own any property which is like a huge issue in our society and he had a government job for like 35 yrs but still could not manage anything. my mother really struggled all her life to give my brother and me proper education and fulfill all our needs, but my father is extremely insulting to him he tries to insult her hurt her in all ways possible just because her success as a parent and individual hurts his ego he has always misbehaved and hurt her .....now his own behavior irritates me so much its like i am always angry with him it's almost hatred but you are not supposed to hate your parents he is a chain smoker n he drinks everyday so much money is spent on his addictions i hate him.......but am i bad? am i a bad child you are not supposed to hate your parents